Moving From Being Tough to Being Strong
By
Matt W Sandford, LMHC
In
part one, we examined the tendency to resist tears and what they represent, and
to develop a protective layer of toughness as a way to handle life’s hurts,
disappointments and rejections. I
proposed that this way of managing negative emotional experiences stunts one’s
emotional growth and limits one’s ability to cultivate meaningful and lasting
relationships. I had offered that I would follow up with some alternative ways
to approach the risks and pain of life.
1. Feel Your Feelings
When
we’ve been hurt, many of us learn to protect ourselves by deciding that we are
not going to show our hurts again. And so we “layer up”, meaning we shield
ourselves with the mask of “I’m okay” and we cover our heart under layers of
armor. But, we never knew that the process of protecting our heart was also
going to result in burying our heart - from ourselves and others. I may be
safe, but now I’m lonely and empty inside.
The
way back is through the process of shedding the layers and unburying your
heart. You start by unburying your heart to yourself. You begin asking honest
questions about what is going on inside and you stop running away from the
pain. You let it come and you feel it. At first, if there is a lot of fear
about this, you may want to set a limit to it by giving yourself 10-15 minutes
in which you journal your thoughts and feelings. If you are having trouble, or particularly
if there is trauma or abuse in your background, it may be beneficial to consult
a counseling professional.
2. Cultivate Discernment
While
unburying your heart, you’ll want to work on developing your ability to discern
safety in relationships. Your goal is to be able to unbury your heart and
connect meaningfully with others. But, let’s face it. You aren’t going to dare
anything like that unless you can feel safe. And you may be doubting whether
that is even possible.
There
are safe people out there. I mean people who can listen to your story and not
judge or mock or think less of you. People who won’t be trite, just telling you
to “buck up” or “be strong” or you “gotta have faith”. People who won’t be
quick to give advice or fix. But you have to learn how to spot safe people – as
well as those who aren’t safe. I would guess that a good portion of your pain
is due to people who weren’t safe, which is why it is now hard to believe that
safe people exist.
By
the way, the world doesn’t only have two categories of people, safe and non
safe. Most fall into the middle ground, or regular folks who are a mix. What I
mean is that most folks are sometimes safe and sometimes not safe, or another
way to say it is, most of us can be kind and compassionate and can also be
selfish, arrogant and self-protective ourselves. So, the goal here is not to
hold back and wait until you can find a perfectly safe person. No, discernment
provides us a way to minimize our risks but not to eliminate it.
3. Practice Boundaries
Developing
and practicing good healthy personal boundaries is the way to develop
discernment and protect yourself without “layering up”. Boundaries are lines of
definition. Property lines define what belongs to the United States and what
belongs to Canada. Personal boundaries define what is me and what is not me,
psychologically and mentally and emotionally and volitionally speaking. What I
think and believe is mine, what I feel is mine, what I chose is mine. Boundary
violations are when another person tries to impose on what is mine or take what
is mine or mar or destroy what is mine. Some examples can be: when someone
mocks you, manipulates you, bullies you, criticizes you, pressures you, or
flatters you.
Developing
healthy boundaries involves discovering what you think, feel, believe, fear,
dislike etc. so that you can identify when your boundaries are being
threatened. Then, the next step is to communicate your boundaries; and not only
when they are being threatened. You are the representative of what is yours.
You are responsible for letting others know what you think, feel, want, don’t
want and what your preferences are. When you don’t bother to do this, that’s
when others will impose their preferences – not because they want to hurt or
overrun you (sometimes that may be true) but many times it is simply because
they did not know what your preferences were.
Discernment
here means learning how much to share about myself to whom, and observing how
people respond to my boundaries. Boundaries should be fluid. You will want to
manage the height and thickness of the boundary based on the responses of the
other and based on their track record over time. It would be wise to begin a
new relationship with the boundary fairly high, meaning to choose to reveal
safer or less vulnerable parts of myself first, such as my opinion on a movie
before my feelings toward my father. As I practice the maintenance of my
boundaries, I will learn how to protect myself without hiding and learn how to
identify safer people, with whom I can cultivate emotionally healthy
relationships.
4. Develop Dependence on the
Safest Relationship
But
let’s face it, you can do these things well and still get hurt. You can’t
protect yourself from every attack, or every meanness. If even good people
sometimes are mean or rude or insensitive, then what about the not so good
ones! And since I am offering that hiding or “the stiff upper lip” approach is
very flawed, I want to recommend a way to come “out of the castle” of self
protection and still survive. Fundamentally, the notion of hiding and becoming
tough is about self reliance and there is the problem. For the problem isn’t
that you can’t protect yourself from everything, the problem is in the trying.
When we try to protect ourselves in this way, we have taken over the role of
God. We have made ourselves the decider of what is good for us and what we need
to experience and what is too hard for us to handle. It is not actually our
role to determine such things, but rather it is our role to depend on the one whose
job it is to determine the course of our lives and take care of us. I am by no
means advocating that we become fatalistic and just resign ourselves to
whatever comes along. What I am referring to is a shift in our allegiance and
attitude. A shift in allegiance, meaning letting go of our need to control the
circumstances, and a shift in attitude, meaning a choice to trust, which we
need to do often, reminding ourselves of the things that are true – that God is
in charge, that God is perfectly wise, that God is working for my best in every
moment, etc. You see, I can’t depend on any person in a complete sense, but I
can depend on the God who stands above and behind that person and every
interaction.
5. Putting It all Together
Let’s
go back to the notion of moving from being tough to being strong. The old
way
was about self protection – hiding my feelings, avoiding intimacy, not letting
people know if they hurt me or if I needed help, and generally putting on a
front of “togetherness” – to fool not only others but myself as well. But being
strong looks different. It fact, by the culture’s definition, it probably
doesn’t look strong at all. But the culture is mistaken. Strength is shown in
the courage required to be authentic and vulnerable and to deal with people’s
insensitivity or meanness not with caustic attacks in kind, but to protect
ourselves by being aware of what we are feeling and expressing one’s boundary.
This is strength – being able to show restraint, not behaving childishly with
rants or insults or lashing out with violence. The strength to feel your angry,
wounded, shameful, disappointed, rejected, bullied, overwhelmed, anxious,
fearful, or confused emotions without giving them control to do as they please
and perpetrate back on the other what you received. Even if it was the
conditioning you experienced growing up, even if you have not had good models
of doing this well, even if no one you know is managing themselves with
strength in this way. Why? Because this is what God defines strength as, and
what God praises and what we are called to live out. This is how God has
provided for us to live emotionally healthy and have healthy relationships.
It
takes real work – the kind that builds true strength.
Let’s
be courageously vulnerable!
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