A Day That Changed Everything
By Laura Hull, LMFT
Coping Coach
I remember life before “the diagnosis.” It’s been over 15
years now, but I remember the cold chill that ran down my spine when the doctor
told me that I had an autoimmune disease that would challenge my life going
forward. Life changed that day. It was day one of a journey in the re-defining
of “me.” Priorities changed, perspective changed, and I found out quickly that
the volume of stress, much of it self inflicted, that I had allowed in my life
up to that point had contributed, as least in part, to the situation I found
myself in….it cost me something in terms of my health. I hope what I will share
challenge you to consider the risk and potential consequences of
unrecognized/unmanaged stress.
I counsel people to consider the consequences of stress on
both their physical health and emotional health. While no one can avoid stress completely, I
think most of us, at times, blindly sign on for things that introduce more
stress into our lives than is absolutely necessary. In trying to be “everything to everyone” we
allow our time and energy (physical and mental) to be drained. That’s not to say that as we are experiencing
it, that it feels negative. There are
plenty of places we invest our time/efforts that are very enjoyable, yet drain
our energies, putting great amounts of stress on us, usually physically. I
would challenge everyone reading this to consider his or her own
situation. Are you being pulled in fifty
different directions while trying to attend to all your obligations? Are you feeling run down, physically? Are you chronically tired? Do you sleep well
at night? Do you ever feel overwhelmed
by the volume of the commitments you have or the amount of work required of
you? It is wise to consider these things often and honestly.
“But I am young, I have always been healthy.” Those were the
thoughts that ran through my mind as I struggled to grasp the reality that my
health picture had shifted dramatically in what felt like a matter of
moments. But truthfully, I had been
burning the candle at both ends for a very long time. It all felt like “good stress,” so I never
felt the need to pull back. I was (and am) very happy in my marriage. I loved (love) being a mother. I was involved
at my children’s schools. I was involved with church activities. I was (am)
blessed with wonderful friends and family, with whom I was very invested in
giving my time to. I was being pulled in
many directions, and I loved it. I was oblivious to the fact that I was working
harder than was reasonable, trying to be the best at everything. I didn’t rest as much as I should have. I
took care of everyone in my life except me.
I made sure my family had enough sleep.
I made sure my family ate healthy meals. I made sure my family had their
check ups. But I allowed my obligations,
my “stress,” to impact me physically. “I can sleep when I’m old and the kids are
grown and gone.” That would be a fair representation of where my mindset was at
before “the diagnosis.” If I could hop in a time machine and go back to the
younger me, I would warn her…“if you don’t slow down and be smarter about how
you are managing the stressors in your life, it will cost you…be smarter.”
Of course, that is not possible. But I can share my experience with others in
an effort to challenge people to consider whether or not they are managing
stress well and to recognize the potential dangers that lie in not being aware.
While I viewed, and still view, my stress as being “good stress” (defined as “I
was happy in my life and enjoying the things I was doing”) there was still a
price to pay for not choosing to have balance in my life. Many people, however, experience “negative
stress” in life. They are not happy with
the direction of life. Sometimes their
relationships are unfulfilling.
Sometimes they hate their jobs/careers. Some people become flustered
when physically/mentally fatigued, but don’t feel they have the right to say no
to things and pull back. They are flat-out miserable; yet continue the same
stress-filled routine indefinitely. The misery is consuming and inevitably
contagious to those around them. Eventually, they become shells of their former
selves…running on autopilot, struggling just to get through every day. Friends,
that is no way to live. It really isn’t.
The much younger version of me was highly ambitious. I was a
committed wife, a “supermother,” world traveler, writer, a wanna-be superhero,
and your basic type A nightmare. I had plans, I had dreams, and buddy, you were
not going to stop my runaway train. I
could do it all, I was going to have it all, and if I ruled the world in the
process, that was just fine by me. J Please understand that last sentence was
offered with tongue firmly planted in cheek. But I will concede that I had no
off switch at that point in my life. I
have often wondered if God allowed my health issue to come into my life to
teach me lessons that I needed, and in turn try to teach to others in an effort
to help them avoid similar mistakes. Did
God in essence say “Sit down, Laura. I’m about to teach you a lesson about who
is in control and what really matters in life.” If He did, I am more than okay
with that.
Stress can have a negative impact on health. This is a fact.
Stress is often a contributing factor in the development of heart disease and
cancer. Stress on the body can be a factor in the development of autoimmune
disease. While stress is certainly not the only factor in these serious health
issues and others, it does play a
role to some degree in some people. It
is so easy for us to get caught up in the demands of our daily lives that we
forget how to manage our stress in healthy ways. We cannot always assume that
“because I are young” or “because I have good genes,” that we are immune to the
negative impact of stress on our health. People are developing serious health
challenges at younger and younger ages. We must start early in our lives to
develop good habits, achieving and maintaining balance in our lives in order to
preserve both our physical and emotional health. There is always a price to pay
when life is out of balance. Don’t fool yourself into believing there isn’t. Some
pay in their relationships. Some pay in terms of their happiness levels and
their emotional health, sometimes people pay with their physical wellbeing, and
some pay in other ways. But make no mistake, there is always a cost associated
with a life lived out of balance.
My challenge to you is to consider where your life is at
now. Are you managing the stress in your life well? Would others around you say
that you manage stress well? Do the stressors in your life change you in ways
that are negative? Are you as happy as you could be? Do you feel well most of
the time, or are you dragging, physically or mentally? These are just some of the questions you may
need to be asking yourself and answering truthfully. If you need help achieving
balance, have the courage to take the steps required to make the changes
necessary in order to live the kind of life, and experience the kind of
happiness, that God wants for you. Life is short.
Live it well.